ben

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 00:21:30 GMT

Anyone wanna overnight me one of these ? I only want the cheap(er) version and you could also throw one of these or these but you know, I could handle that by myself *wink*

But seriously, the Xbox 360 is looking pretty wicked. I played it a few times at Walmart and it is definately going to be awesome once I save up the money to get one. Perfect Dark alone looks like the killer app at launch but a slew of other games are looking to be mighty impressive.

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 22:12:32 GMT

Cirque Du Soleil, if you haven't seen a show, do it now. I went on Saturday and it was a really good time for anyone that enjoys a good show of color, music, acrobatics and culture. The show is mostly in French and Spanish, possibly something else I couldn't understand. That didn't matter because everything else going on more than made up for the lack of interpretation. Everything from the singing to the music was all done live in house during the show and it all went off without a hitch providing a very engrossing experience I won't soon forget. The tickets are a little pricey but if you want to go check it out, get the cheapest ticket you can because there was not a bad seat in the house aside from obstructed view seats(duh). It's all under a Big Top type of tent so I would assume seating is the same at every event. It's heated and there is an intermission halfway through, so anyone who thinks they'll freeze or die without a smoke break has been saved! The show, dubbed Varekai!, had entertainment ranging from a single trapeze act, dancing, dual rope acrobatics, slapstick comedy, group acrobatics and some mighty erotic body contortion. The costumes, music and stage were all very finely crafted and imaginative. In all honesty I saw so freaking much I can't even clearly remember it all. Really if you have any interest in theater at all I'd suggest checking it out if you EVER get the chance. A couple years ago I saw Cirque:Dream it Live at the local Comma and as great as that was this trumped it in every way. All I know is there are 7 more shows from the company that performed and I'd hate to think I might not get to see them all.

The older I get the stranger I find it that the kid who used to do nothing but listen to Nirvana could have evolved into someone appreciative of varied cultures and experiences. I'm a sponge!

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 01:37:14 GMT

Today has absolutely sucked some serious shit. I feel super inadequate and empty. I told my mom about moving out at the end of the year and she hasn't acted the same towards me since. She isn't getting alot of hours at her job and I really think she thinks I'm just going to leave her behind or something. I thought she'd be happy I was finally leaving but I just don't what know what's going on. I'm quickly losing interest in the things I enjoy and getting high doesn't even make me happy anymore. I'm coming apart at the seams and I just can't find that thread to pull myself back together. I don't even feel like complaining anymore, bleh.

Haha

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 23:40:38 GMT

So I went to Wally World today with my mom. I didn't have any money with me and I asked her to get a game for me until I could get it back to her. When we got up to the counter the clerk goes on to inform her that the game includes "Blood and Gore And Intende Violence" and that it was "Rated M for mature". It was all I could do to not to bust out laughing as he acted like I was a seven year old that needed to be protected from the horrors of video games. What was even better was it was Mortal Kombat:Defiance. My parents rented me Mortal Kombat 1 when I was like 11. Good times in Motown

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 17:02:26 GMT

So I'm not really sure how to feel today. It's like Living in Seatle and getting 180 days of rain in a row, and then getting a sunny day. I'm just so used to the rain, I'm not sure how to act outside. I had a really great day yesterday and thanks to all involved. Despite being tired as balls because it was too hot to sleep last night, I feel better than I have felt in a long time. I got out of bed the first time I woke up as apposed to laying there until I just couldn't get back to sleep like normal and did some things around the house. And it's still only 1 'oclock. Things have been going reasonably well for the past few weeks and I guess I was so used to being "in a state of bleh" I didn't notice.

I went into the one place I hate most social wise last night because I thought Mike was in there, but it was someone elses yellow xterra outside! It's a lot different than the last time I was there though and it seemed a little better, but it was a slow rainy night so I'm not sure what the average crowd is like. Being in the middle of town I'm sure it attracts alot of idiots.

Anyway, things are going good and I don't feel like dying these days. Summer has been hot as shit but refreshing mentally as things seem more laid back I guess. I haven't gotten angry in weeks about anything and that alone amazes me.
Growing up is pretty weird.

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 12:18:47 GMT

Man getting up early sucks ass. I so wish I could go back to sleep for atleast 2 more hours. I need a time machine, so I can sleep until 10, then travel back in time and go to work yeah!

too retarded to keep to myself

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 02:17:00 GMT

Learn Chinese in 2 mins!!

From: Golgo2004 (gs) | Posted: 4/19/2005 8:59:39 AM | Message Detail

1) -That's not right ...................... Sum Ting Wong
2) -Are you harboring a fugitive....... Hu Yu Hai Ding
3) -See me ASAP........................ ..Kum Hia Nao
4) -Stupid Man ............................ Dum Fuk
5) -Small Horse ....................... .... Tai Ni Po Ni
6) -Did you go to the beach?........... Wai Yu So Tan
7) -I bumped into a coffee table.......Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni
8) -I think you need a face lift........ Chin Tu Fat
9) -It's very dark in here ............. Wao So Dim
10) -I thought you were on a diet....Wai Yu Mun Ching
11) -This is a tow away zone ..........No Pah King
12) -Our meeting is tomorrow ........ Wai Yu Kum Nao
13) -Staying out of sight ............. Lei Ying Lo
14) -He's cleaning his automobile ...Wa Shing Ka
15) -Your body odor is offensive ... Yu Stin Ki Pu

Def wasn't expecting these results

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 20:12:01 GMT

Your Slanguage Profile

Canadian Slang: 75%

British Slang: 50%

Victorian Slang: 50%

New England Slang: 25%

Prison Slang: 25%

Aussie Slang: 0%

Southern Slang: 0%

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 22:22:07 GMT

So who wants to send me 450$ that I needed a month ago to pay off my car and order me a bride from Russia to cure my love woes?. Yeah, I ddn't think so. Life sucks balls sometimes.

Everyday is exactly the same.

Thu, 12 May 2005 03:57:05 GMT

What have I done since I updated last? Hmmm... I went to see my friend's band play at the Wizard in Hickory. I'm driving. My friend's dad died and he broke up with his girlfriend. My other friend got a new girlfriend and is in way over his head, and I never see him anymore. My job still sucks. I'm losing interest in the one thing that keeps me occupied and from going insane. I'm lonely. I'm starting to get ready to move out of the house. I'm looking for another job, preferably at night to make some more money.(=this is the part where you think if you know of something I might be interested in and tell me about it =)I saw Sin City and thuroughly enjoyed it. I think I'm attracted to crazy women(takes one to know one right? Well maybe not the woman part lol, or maybe that's why I dont get women but I relate to the crazy part)Trying hard not to hate the people that have removed themselves from my life, because I can't blame them for who I am or why they may have left. The only real good friend I have may be moving across the country. I'm bad at making new ones. I ate a sandwich for dinner and quesadilla's for breakfast today. I stopped drinking soft drinks a few months back, and I feel alot better. I haven't had any alcohol in quite a while, feel good. Wish I could stop smoking but I mentally co-erse myself into needing it. I really wish I was high right now. This is a really long and broken paragraph with no real point. We're SunCom... And we get it. Where do people go around here to meet people without trying to pick up a fuck for the night? My shell has to crack eventually so I can come out, I'm 24 for fuck's sake, stop being a bitch. I guess I'll just end up being a bachelor for life, with a cat and cable television. What a monotone day. Everything is fuzzy and quiet. The silence is louder than the world around me.NIN's new cd is good, and System of a Down's looks to be even better when it comes out next week. Que sera, sera.

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 19:58:21 GMT

Self Injury Awareness Day(SIAD) - March 1st

SIAD is a global awareness day, and yet it is not supported by any nations' governments, because it is a grass-roots idea. Somehow, in the mists of time, the date was set as the 1st of March, and organisations around the world make extra efforts to raise awareness ready for SIAD.

The colour for some reason is orange. Some people wear an orange ribbon, but in the past SIAD bracelets have been worn:

- Orange beads if you self harm;
- Orange and white if you used to;
- White if you have never self harmed but understand.

If you agree that people should be made aware of this issue and this day, re-post this in your journal.

No clue where to get this stuff but lets just have the mental image that I'm wearing the white one. I grabbed this off my friends list because I feel like it's something people involved with need support with and I actually do understand the ideology behind the acts because I've got my own, not cutting but other methods. Thanks

DAmn!~

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 17:10:47 GMT

I can't believe that someone killed Dime at a DamagePlan concert. From what the news is saying, they just walked up to him while he was playing and blew his head off.. I can't imagine why anyone would want to do that to anyone.

My life is shit

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 21:25:18 GMT

I am so fucking unhappy with my life it's pathetic.blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah .That is all.

End of the week

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 19:40:08 GMT

Been pretty boring lately, a few bad days a few good. I guess as long as the bad days don't outweigh the good I'm doing better. I feel really uninspired to do anything, kind of sucks.

I got a cool game the other day called Donkey Konga where you get the game and a set of bongo's that connec to the gamecube. you have to play the song on the bongo pretty much, with rolls, and taps and clapping. Looks like a good night of get blazed or drunk sometime. Music games are suprisingly more fun than I thought they would be so I gave this a try and I'm not dissapointed.

Hope everyone is doing well. Best wishes..

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 19:57:18 GMT

Mmmm Banana and peanut butter sandwiches kick ass. Too bad heart burn will commence burning me from the inside any moment now lol. Anyone reading this post you're favorite food to snack on! yay. Man I feel so lame today.

I have posted alot today!

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 00:22:42 GMT

The opening for the oplypics was pretty nifty looking, I like the fire coming out of the water to make the olypic symbol..

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 23:19:59 GMT

Someone buy me a Sanyo z1 projector. I wanna watch TV and play Video games on the wall!

Great Advertising

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 22:21:39 GMT

I just saw a commercial for Hardees with a pregnant women eating this gigabtic burger. The commercial goes on to say enjoy it while you're pregnant because you'll probably be eating at Mcdonalds for the next year because Mcdonalds is great.... When you're 7.

I just found that hilarious, because it was so serious and like a virtual slap in the face.. I love TV and marijuana...

Abazaba you're my only friend!

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 18:08:53 GMT

Well I looked in the mail today and there was a cookbook from Marlboro. The Cook Like A Man Cookbook! taglined Grill it. Smoke it. BBQ the heck out of it.

Indeed.

This was a cool suprise but only to be topped by the next peice of mail I inspected. The almighty AOL Discs! That's right discS. Plural baby! There's a dial up cd and NOW they give me the high speed version of AOL. This is great news because it takes so long to download stuff with broadband afterall.I mean how could this be a bad thing???

Double the Power of you're internet! Powerful Spam and Pop-up Blocker! High Speed Firewall! I know my low speed firewall sucks ass. There is even a movie preview of the SpiderMan 2 game. Golden I tell you! I'm almost afraid to open the package because it seems too good to be true! There has to be Anthrax inside or something.

And what have we learned today class? When Ben is bored, even the mail can entertain him!

Been feeling good lately!

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 16:45:41 GMT

I finally got a car a couple days ago, and within the next month I should be driving and all that good crap. I've been in a rut for quite sometime and I think this has helped me gain a little self worth. I'm actually enjoying myself and having fun with my friends again. Hopefully things will turn around and I can get moving in the direction I want.

I AM El Mariachi!!! HAHAHA!

Tue, 04 May 2004 18:53:20 GMT

okay i dont know why but i fewlt compelled to get on the internet and tell everyone that Fear Factory's new cd is pretty freakin sweet, and that Slipknot has a new cd coming out in the near future. AND Anthrax has a cd/dvd combo coming out with "redo's" of a bunch of old song with their( new'ish?) i dunno he isnt new new but he isnt the orig. and a dvd of a show in chicago.sounds pretty sweet ibn a major way! Anyway i just thought i'd spread the knowledge.

hah i love how they put good as a feeling... good is so generic.. it just fits me perfectly

Spring Cleaning..

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 19:38:56 GMT

I hate when Spring Cleaning comes aroundbecause there is always something that you should throw away but you don't want to. I really only have one of those things but it gets harder and harder to look at every year. See there is this box that i have had for a long time,and it's a peice of crap but i just can't throw it away. It has what I always thought would be the rest of my life in it. There are movie ticket stubs in it, soccer game tickets in it, a lock of hair, matchbooks from a concert, letters and drawings and all sorts of things. All left from a relationship that i thought would last forever. Every year when i come across this box, i stop and read everything inside it and look at all the pictures and drawings. Last year i didn't have a lighter when i was looking through it and i wouldnt even use the matchbook because it meant something. When will God let me forget about the past and move on to the future. My stubborn will cannot let me just move forward and except the fact that things will never be the way they were and that holding on to things is only holding me back. I cant decide if the things i hold on to are worth it for memories or if they are just poluting my mind with joys i can never have back. Since the time I amassed this collection, i have been involved in other relationships but they just didn't seem real to me, like I was doing something wrong, and thus they all ended in failure. I came to points where i had gotten into situations that i had dreamed long ago would happen. But it still didn't feel right. Again i ask, when will God let me just move on with my life and do something useful.I'm still poor, I still don't have a car, I'm still lonely, and I still don't have the courage inside me to take action and get back what i long for.Please God, please anyone, Let me move on.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 00:24:52 GMT

it's amazing to think that religion says that i will go to hell because i hate myself. that sucks

and now for something completely different

Thu, 20 Nov 2003 09:17:53 GMT

i thought that since i always posted asinine shit about my life that is negative, i'm make a point to post something positive. while it may be pointless atleast its positive!! i was riding around with Ryan today, and i was looking at the clouds. It was simply amazing, it was around dusk, and everywhere we went that we stopped at a stoplight or something they had changed, color, shape all that... they went from being light a fluffy to a rigid pinkish purple color, and when the wind started whipping around closer to dark, they got a really creep black color and got swirly and sharp.. it was pretty cool... sort of natures metaphor of life... deep hehe.. anyway im out

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 19:50:36 GMT

i just experienced what i guess would be considered a panic attack.. i came home and looked at my dog, and for some reason a bunch of things i was thinking about last night just sort of floodedinto my mind and made me break down and cry, i couldnt breathe and i didnt know what to do.. i feel like everything good in my life i have just fucked up and ruined. i see everyone with they're cars and girlfriends and all this stuff that they claim to appreciate and they just misstreat it. i am on the lowest rung of the ladder in blessings. i really love my family and my friends, and i think about the ppl that used to be in my life that are no longer there on a daily basis. countless nights are filled with dreams or sleeplessness containing thoughts of all these things. and sometimes i just wonder how in the hell i am supposed to handle it. i just dunno how much longer i can wait until things improve for me. damn. i know i wasnt even going to post here anymore, but sometimes writing things out is the only thing that can help me. because i have noone i can really sit down and talk to about this sort of stuff.. i lost that too