Anyone wanna overnight me one of these ? I only want the cheap(er) version and you could also throw one of these or these but you know, I could handle that by myself *wink*

But seriously, the Xbox 360 is looking pretty wicked. I played it a few times at Walmart and it is definately going to be awesome once I save up the money to get one. Perfect Dark alone looks like the killer app at launch but a slew of other games are looking to be mighty impressive.

Cirque Du Soleil, if you haven't seen a show, do it now. I went on Saturday and it was a really good time for anyone that enjoys a good show of color, music, acrobatics and culture. The show is mostly in French and Spanish, possibly something else I couldn't understand. That didn't matter because everything else going on more than made up for the lack of interpretation. Everything from the singing to the music was all done live in house during the show and it all went off without a hitch providing a very engrossing experience I won't soon forget. The tickets are a little pricey but if you want to go check it out, get the cheapest ticket you can because there was not a bad seat in the house aside from obstructed view seats(duh). It's all under a Big Top type of tent so I would assume seating is the same at every event. It's heated and there is an intermission halfway through, so anyone who thinks they'll freeze or die without a smoke break has been saved! The show, dubbed Varekai!, had  entertainment ranging from a single trapeze act, dancing, dual rope acrobatics, slapstick comedy, group acrobatics and some mighty erotic body contortion. The costumes, music and stage were all very finely crafted and imaginative. In all honesty I saw so freaking much I can't even clearly remember it all. Really if you have any interest in theater at all I'd suggest checking it out if you EVER get the chance. A couple years ago I saw Cirque:Dream it Live at the local Comma and as great as that was this trumped it in every way. All I know is there are 7 more shows from the company that performed and I'd hate to think I might not get to see them all.

The older I get the stranger I find it that the kid who used to do nothing but listen to Nirvana could have evolved into someone appreciative of varied cultures and experiences. I'm a sponge!

Today has absolutely sucked some serious shit. I feel super inadequate and empty. I told my mom about moving out at the end of the year and she hasn't acted the same towards me since. She isn't getting alot of hours at her job and I really think she thinks I'm just going to leave her behind or something. I thought she'd be happy I was finally leaving but I just don't what know what's going on. I'm quickly losing interest in the things I enjoy and getting high doesn't even make me happy anymore. I'm coming apart at the seams and I just can't find that thread to pull myself back together. I don't even feel like complaining anymore, bleh.

So I went to Wally World today with my mom. I didn't have any money with me and I asked her to get a game for me until I could get it back to her. When we got up to the counter the clerk goes on to inform her that the game includes "Blood and Gore And Intende Violence" and that it was "Rated M for mature". It was all I could do to not to bust out laughing as he acted like I was a seven year old that needed to be protected from the horrors of video games. What was even better was it was Mortal Kombat:Defiance. My parents rented me Mortal Kombat 1 when I was like 11. Good times in Motown

So I'm not really sure how to feel today. It's like Living in Seatle and getting 180 days of rain in a row, and then getting a sunny day. I'm just so used to the rain, I'm not sure how to act outside. I had a really great day yesterday and thanks to all involved. Despite being tired as balls because it was too hot to sleep last night, I feel better than I have felt in a long time. I got out of bed the first time I woke up as apposed to laying there until I just couldn't get back to sleep like normal and did some things around the house. And it's still only 1 'oclock. Things have been going reasonably well for the past few weeks and I guess I was so used to being "in a state of bleh" I didn't notice.




I went into the one place I hate most social wise last night because I thought Mike was in there, but it was someone elses yellow xterra outside! It's a lot different than the last time I was there though and it seemed a little better, but it was a slow rainy night so I'm not sure what the average crowd is like. Being in the middle of town I'm sure it attracts alot of idiots.




Anyway, things are going good and I don't feel like dying these days. Summer has been hot as shit but refreshing mentally as things seem more laid back I guess. I haven't gotten angry in weeks about anything and that alone amazes me.
Growing up is pretty weird.

Date:	2005-07-26 08:17
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

Man getting up early sucks ass. I so wish I could go back to sleep for atleast 2 more hours. I need a time machine, so I can sleep until 10, then travel back in time and go to work yeah!

Date:	2005-07-23 22:15
Subject:	too retarded to keep to myself
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	The Frail - NiN

Learn Chinese in 2 mins!!

From: Golgo2004 (gs) | Posted: 4/19/2005 8:59:39 AM | Message Detail


1) -That's not right ...................... Sum Ting Wong
2) -Are you harboring a fugitive....... Hu Yu Hai Ding
3) -See me ASAP........................ ..Kum Hia Nao
4) -Stupid Man ............................ Dum Fuk
5) -Small Horse ....................... .... Tai Ni Po Ni
6) -Did you go to the beach?........... Wai Yu So Tan
7) -I bumped into a coffee table.......Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni
8) -I think you need a face lift........ Chin Tu Fat
9) -It's very dark in here ............. Wao So Dim
10) -I thought you were on a diet....Wai Yu Mun Ching
11) -This is a tow away zone ..........No Pah King
12) -Our meeting is tomorrow ........ Wai Yu Kum Nao
13) -Staying out of sight ............. Lei Ying Lo
14) -He's cleaning his automobile ...Wa Shing Ka
15) -Your body odor is offensive ... Yu Stin Ki Pu

Your Slanguage Profile

Canadian Slang: 75%

British Slang: 50%

Victorian Slang: 50%

New England Slang: 25%

Prison Slang: 25%

Aussie Slang: 0%

Southern Slang: 0%

So who wants to send me 450$ that I needed a month ago to pay off my car and order me a bride from Russia to cure my love woes?. Yeah, I ddn't think so. Life sucks balls sometimes.

Date:	2005-05-11 23:38
Subject:	Everyday is exactly the same.
Security:	Public
Mood:	stressed
Music:	NIN - With Teeth

What have I done since I updated last? Hmmm... I went to see my friend's band play at the Wizard in Hickory. I'm driving. My friend's dad died and he broke up with his girlfriend. My other friend got a new girlfriend and is in way over his head, and I never see him anymore. My job still sucks. I'm losing interest in the one thing that keeps me occupied and from going insane. I'm lonely. I'm starting to get ready to move out of the house. I'm looking for another job, preferably at night to make some more money.(=this is the part where you think if you know of something I might be interested in and tell me about it =)I saw Sin City and thuroughly enjoyed it. I think I'm attracted to crazy women(takes one to know one right? Well maybe not the woman part lol, or maybe that's why I dont get women but I relate to the crazy part)Trying hard not to hate the people that have removed themselves from my life, because I can't blame them for who I am or why they may have left. The only real good friend I have may be moving across the country. I'm bad at making new ones. I ate a sandwich for dinner and quesadilla's for breakfast today. I stopped drinking soft drinks a few months back, and I feel alot better. I haven't had any alcohol in quite a while, feel good. Wish I could stop smoking but I mentally co-erse myself into needing it. I really wish I was high right now. This is a really long and broken paragraph with no real point. We're SunCom... And we get it. Where do people go around here to meet people without trying to pick up a fuck for the night? My shell has to crack eventually so I can come out, I'm 24 for fuck's sake, stop being a bitch. I guess I'll just end up being a bachelor for life, with a cat and cable television. What a monotone day. Everything is fuzzy and quiet. The silence is louder than the world around me.NIN's new cd is good, and System of a Down's looks to be even better when it comes out next week. Que sera, sera.

Self Injury Awareness Day(SIAD) - March 1st

SIAD is a global awareness day, and yet it is not supported by any nations' governments, because it is a grass-roots idea. Somehow, in the mists of time, the date was set as the 1st of March, and organisations around the world make extra efforts to raise awareness ready for SIAD.

The colour for some reason is orange. Some people wear an orange ribbon, but in the past SIAD bracelets have been worn:

- Orange beads if you self harm;
- Orange and white if you used to;
- White if you have never self harmed but understand.

If you agree that people should be made aware of this issue and this day, re-post this in your journal.



No clue where to get this stuff but lets just have the mental image that I'm wearing the white one. I grabbed this off my friends list because I feel like it's something people involved with need support with and I actually do understand the ideology behind the acts because I've got my own, not cutting but other methods. Thanks

Date:	2004-12-09 09:00
Subject:	DAmn!~
Security:	Public
Mood:	disappointed
Music:	Pantera - CFH bitches

I can't believe that someone killed Dime at a DamagePlan concert. From what the news is saying, they just walked up to him while he was playing and blew his head off.. I can't imagine why anyone would want to do that to anyone.

I am so fucking unhappy with my life it's pathetic.blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah .That is all.

Been pretty boring lately, a few bad days a few good. I guess as long as the bad days don't outweigh the good I'm doing better. I feel really uninspired to do anything, kind of sucks.


I got a cool game the other day called Donkey Konga where you get the game and a set of bongo's that connec to the gamecube. you have to play the song on the bongo pretty much, with rolls, and taps and clapping. Looks like a good night of get blazed or drunk sometime. Music games are suprisingly more fun than I thought they would be so I gave this a try and I'm not dissapointed.



Hope everyone is doing well. Best wishes..

Mmmm Banana and peanut butter sandwiches kick ass. Too bad heart burn will commence burning me from the inside any moment now lol. Anyone reading this post you're favorite food to snack on! yay. Man I feel so lame today.

The opening for the oplypics was pretty nifty looking, I like the fire coming out of the water to make the olypic symbol..

Someone buy me a Sanyo z1 projector. I wanna watch TV and play Video games on the wall!

I just saw a commercial for Hardees with a pregnant women eating this gigabtic burger. The commercial goes on to say enjoy it while you're pregnant because you'll probably be eating at Mcdonalds for the next year because Mcdonalds is great.... When you're 7.


I just found that hilarious, because it was so serious and like a virtual slap in the face.. I love TV and marijuana...

Date:	2004-08-12 08:01
Subject:	Abazaba you're my only friend!
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

Well I looked in the mail today and there was a cookbook from Marlboro. The Cook Like A Man Cookbook! taglined Grill it. Smoke it. BBQ the heck out of it.

Indeed.


This was a cool suprise but only to be topped by the next peice of mail I inspected. The almighty AOL Discs! That's right discS. Plural baby! There's a dial up cd and NOW they give me the high speed version of AOL. This is great news because it takes so long to download stuff with broadband afterall.I mean how could this be a bad thing???

Double the Power of you're internet! Powerful Spam and Pop-up Blocker! High Speed Firewall! I know my low speed firewall sucks ass. There is even a movie preview of the SpiderMan 2 game. Golden I tell you! I'm almost afraid to open the package because it seems too good to be true! There has to be Anthrax inside or something.


And what have we learned today class? When Ben is bored, even the mail can entertain him!

Date:	2004-07-20 12:42
Subject:	Been feeling good lately!
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

I finally got a car a couple days ago, and within the next month I should be driving and all that good crap. I've been in a rut for quite sometime and I think this has helped me gain a little self worth. I'm actually enjoying myself and having fun with my friends again. Hopefully things will turn around and I can get moving in the direction I want.